sats

are finally over yaaaayyy :)
now i just need to worry about getting my license qq. but the things i could do with a car.. muaha. anyways yesterday was sad. i watched hachiko cus he made such a big deal out of it and when i did i couldnt stop crying LOL. and my mom got back home during the last 20 min of the movie, and she came in and watched the rest with me and she started crying sooo hard HAHAHA.

yesterday was depressing tho. after sats i thought it would be good.. but nope. its hard accepting it but i thought about so many things before i fell asleep last night. about all the shit we went through, and how many times i thought to myself "why am i letting myself be treated this?" and i think thats my motivation of getting through this. i know its gonna be tough for a while.. but i got this :) and plus that qt muahaha. this weekends gonna be hellla fun but the week T___T i need to bring my grades up asap. but after talking with a lot of my friends going off to college, i realized that times getting shorter and shorter. its so weird but i never really expected to feel that time limit. i cant believe that in less than 9 months im going to be working on college apps. and in less than 9 months im going to turn 18 and be legal for almost everything (hhehe). sooo muuuchh shit but thats life!

im not going to let this hold me down. im sorry i cant do what youre asking me. but im sure you get around so dont trip chocolate chip. oh and heres the quote of the day :)

"No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters. We're just warming up.”

=) i miss you qt.