faults

i am really indecisive. i wish i could make good or the right choices right on the spot but i cant. i always want one thing and then another, and just end up making things worse. i used to think that i would eventually get what i want but life is.. a bitch.

im also really doubtful. i never know whats good or bad for me. im never sure of anything and most of the time i always end up regretting things because i usually end up not going for it or i overdo it. 

& i always expect too much. i want the other person to spend all of his or her effort while i can just have things simply. im selfish and i like it when other people work it out my way.

sooo my biggest faults are being indecisive, constantly doubtful, and expecting too much. aishhhh =( okay think this is kinda getting a bit depressing LOL. so anyways! you know how theres always a particular song that reminds you of a particular person every time you listen to it? yeah that shits been happening to me a lot these days LOL. i cant seem to get that song outta my headddd..

Never Fallin' - Roscoe Umali ft. One Blk Ra

Heartbreaker - MSTRKRFT ft. John Legend (just for the record tehe)

kkkk so my cousins from irvine are coming down tonight for another fambam.. sesh? LOL love them but kinda sorta slowly getting sick of them.. LOLOL. i need to chilllll with my fwendss :( the only way i interact with them is via phone, aim, and facebook. my mom wont even let people visit me (FUCKING PRISON STATUS LOL) shooo shaaaad =( but then again i actually do want to do super well in school and get super high SAT scores so i can go to the super east coast and get super rich and meet a super hot guy and get super-ly? married and have super kids and live in a super home.. hehehe. ugh i need some more spontaneity in my life. its sho boring haahaaha.. minus some weird kid (baby? LOL) thats been making me stay up all night literallly and turning me into some nocturnal shit.. tehe

oh & btw.. i like cuties :)