butterflies

i used to never really understand the whole "butterflies in my stomach" feeling unless i was hella nervous for a school presentation or something. but i think i kinda get it now.. aahahah :)

oookay so im officially fucked for school! yipppeee. it suckss i always tell myself when i wake up that todays the day im going to start reading "rhetoric" or finish all the essays in lively art. but i always get distracted ugh :( and with my sleeping schedule all fucked up now idk how im gonna be able to adjust back to my normal sleeping and waking time LOL. but even though i keep procrastinating summer hw im really determined to give it my all in junior year. i keep wishing that i didnt screw up sophomore year but you cant change the past.. so might as well fix what you can in the present :) plus i really want to get texting back and my own car so my life kinda depends on how hard i work in school. im just drilling into my head how if i finish all my summer hw by next thursday i can play friday and the whole weekend since my rents are gonna be goneee yaayay! i know its bad but last night before i went to sleep i was planning how im gonna jack my moms car keys so that when her and my dad leave she wont be able to find it and ill be the only one who knows where the keys are at.. aka driving wherever i want nigguhs HAAHA sho excited ;) but then again karma usually ends up biting me in the bootay so i have a feeling things might not work out -_____-

i really want to jam! like legitly. i feel like singing all the time LOL just feels good to sing sing sing. oh and i want to go shopping.. really badly.. actually you know what i need to go shopping asap homes. jopyuns prob gonna be like "ashley youre such a fucking idiot i told you so" but i really want toms.. haahaha. like seriously some of their colors are just soo freaking cute askghlkalfkal!

personally like the olive green-ish ones the best but yeaaah that shits fuuuccking sexy.. haaha. someone take me shopping! ill love you foheva :)

& ending with this. like honestly even though my life kinda does suck right now with SATs, SATIIs, studying, summer hw catch-up, volunteer, etc. im really glad the way life is right now. not close with some of my old friends but got close with a lot of new ppl so that makes up for it a lot. and he makes me really happy hhahah. the one person i love talking to any time of the day - morning, afternoon, night whenever. hes the reason im nocturnal and shit but its all good tehe. i actually feel like this ones gonna last. hope for the best yeah? :)