maybe

things will get better starting from today..

i realized how important communication is today. dont keep things in; talk it out and hear the other persons response. usually youll get good feedback and see the other persons perspective. if not, well at least you tried :)

soo apush was kinda hard today :( but it was worth staying up pretty late for. i think im starting to hate writing with a passion -___- hurts my hand so much. i was a little depressed after my last period since apush was hard, but i got the best surprise visit from kevin :) i was so startled that i unconsciously closed my lock after taking literally a minute doing the combination. he brought me peach boba too! which totally brightened my day yeeee~ then went to choir sectional practice which were boringggg and then went to mi casa with kevin. i was just lying in my bed while he was working on college apps. i totally did not expect to actually knock out but.... i did. shows how pooped i am =( went to ctc and walked around. and talked. which was something i feel like we both really needed. yay :) saw chris.. and it was litto bit awks hahaha -___- ate at chipotle which was oh so gooood~ i didnt eat there for a long time gah! it was really good. came home and immediately got pounded on and screamed and yelled at by momma because she got the suspension letter.. i really thought the school wouldnt send it because it didnt come for like a month.. fuck my life to the max T___T shes really pissed at me right now. so idk how ima tell her about my plans for the weekend and thanksgiving break lol -___- anyways i made a list of goals to keep me in check and focused for this year. or at least a while:

1) stay in dress code; do not get tempted!

2) dont keep things in and tell him everything that bothers me or whatevers on my mind

3) eat less junk food.. total sacrifice :(

4) study and have good grades, like at least a 4.0 gpa

5) keep the mudder satisfied happy content whatever is opposite of mad and bitchy

6) stop spending so much money on useless things like JUNK FOOD 

7) get back on track with God..

hopefully i can keep all of these. the most important ones to me atm though are #2, 4, 5, and 7.

seriously so glad that i dont have hw tonight. i havent been procrastinating at all this whole week =) um hopefully this can last for a while.. hhaaha. peace outs :)